WHY???????

Why is it when I see pictures of you and her that I want to cry?
Why does it make me wanna rip her head off?
Why do you have to be so happy?
Everything you have with her you had with me.
Why did you make me feel like I was the fuck up.
When in all actuality you where the one who fucked up and let me go.
You hurt me more then I could ever explain.
You broke my heart.
Tore it in to a million little pieces.
If I wished you happiness I would be lying
I don't want you to be happy with her.
I want your world to crash down the way mine did.
I thought maybe if I put on a front it would help me. 
Guess what it hasn't.
Sorry I wasn't the perfect person.
I'm only human. 
Yet you made it seem like a crime. 
I thought the last time I cried over you would be the last.
But seeing you with her just hurts so damn much.
WHY????
You cant answer that because you never cared. 
I'm not even sure that you loved me the way I loved you.
I loved you with everything I was and everything I had. 
I would have given up everything if it meant keeping you.
I gave it my all but it never seemed to be enough.
I'm sorry I was sick and that you never forgave me. 
I'm sorry for everything.
Wait should I be the one saying sorry or should that be you?
Ill never hear it because it will hurt your pride and your ego.
But why did it happen to me??? 
Why does it hurt? Its been over for a while. 
I have accepted that. 
Why do I cry when I see you happy?
Why do I shed these tears at all over you?
I'm happy why cant I let you go?
He makes me happy.
Maybe I just needed to remind myself. 
He is always there for me more then you ever where.
I love him not you all you did was break me down.


WHY WHY WHY!!!!!